Yeah, So...

Sometimes being so angry gets annoying.  I wish I could let it all go like a good orgasm.  Is it so much to ask to be not angry?  Not happy, just not angry.

Apparently, it is.  Somehow, I know it's my own damn fault.  I set myself up for these things, but I am REALLY good at being self destructive.  

There was the whole cutting thing, the eating disorder. I push people away cause I simply just don't trust them. It's just what I do.  I find way to self destruct. I'd like to believe that I'm not alone, but in reality I am.  It's the nature of the beast.

One of these days, I'm going to have to grow up and face my issues.... Until then, I'm drowning it all out with music and alcohol: